Well; after a long and, frankly, HORRIBLE year... even more bad news reveals its ugly head.

As some may know, my favorite grandma was diagnosed awhile back with lung cancer, right? Well, after a few months of chemo and all that, they claimed that she was in remission. That was two weeks ago. Now; come to find out, the cancer actually SPREAD through her bloodstream to just about every organ in her body... including her brain - which has six tumors. She has two weeks or less left on Earth.

All of this just hits me really hard... I haven't seen her since I was 15ish, and here I am 23 now. I feel so many emotions right now; fury at my jobs holding me back from seeing her before she passes, guilt that I haven't seen her in so long... so many things.

The one positive thing is that I remember all of the good times we shared; the grocery shopping, the hours of talking on the back porch of her well-kept house, her finicky nature that made us HAVE to take our shoes off before entering the house. I'll always hold these things dear... but I'll miss the happy birthday phonecalls she never forgets to give me every year on May 2nd.

I hate cancer. I really do.